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I feel like it has been ages since I last came in here. Ooooppsss!
It’s 12.28pm here in this part of the world. I’m sitting at a cafe called Lebkov where a lot of people are having their lunch here or working with their laptops or paperworks. It’s lunch time for me too. So, I left my desk at work and came here. It’s so convenient to work in a big building, where you can have access to the public transportation, restaurants, shopping complexes or people.
While having my vegetarian Thai soup and typing these words, I enjoy looking at the crowd out there. People are passing by on this left side of the cafe to go to their destinations: metros, busses, offices, post-office, shops, gym, car parks. You name it.
In August, I was sent an eye opener by God. Since then, I haven’t stopped from investing so much for myself and for my dreams.
In September, I got myself a Mac Book Pro, 15″, the best that is available. Then I plugged-in to several trainings available online. It made my day when I got a snail mail from Sutera Harbour Hotel, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. Screening to the bottom of the letter, I wanted to jump. It’s my dear Malaysian girlfriend, Elaine, who is also living in the Netherlands but on holiday in Singapore and Malaysia for the last 1 year plus. Attaching to the letter was a 2-page paperclips on the Harvest Festival held in England in August. It was also an honor to see my name printed there as the organizer of the first Harvest Festival celebrated officially in Europe in 2010. I couldn’t help but grinning from ear to ear for having this great girlfriend.
On top of that, I received a package from the US. I can say now that I am a proud member of International Travel Writer and Photographer. It tickled me to see a big word “JOURNALISM” printed on my card. Gosh! I have never taken any journalism courses in college. I write what I feel like writing but if you ask me technical stuff that you have learned at college, you will just get a shy smile from me. 
Ah! Did I tell you what my other September news? I guess some of you know by now through my Facebook pages.
Well! I can tell you in a different time on that. Right now, I need to get back to my initial purpose of coming to Lebkov.
Stay tune as I shall be here often especially when God is sending me His Angels to help you all out there.
Peek A Boo
Hey! How are you? 
17 October 2010. Isn’t it a fine day that I finally am here and was able to re-arrange my study room (again)? The sun is shining out there and got-your-back is playing in the background. I’m trying to re-create the positive energy in this room but I guess I need another month to really re-organise my stuff. At least there are no books, bags, boxes laying around the floor. I can dance again and probably do my 5 minutes exercise or even 5 minutes nap.
The fact that my now former colleague is leaving to China today for a month just to study Mandarin gave me the courage to make use of my time and life. Wasting time and proscastinating are the 2 things that I have mastered very well (you are my witness). So, today I thought of getting back the good energy first. Then do what I want to do.
It´s not easy to create a story when there are mountains of them to be told. Therefore, I will leave them for the next time when the brain has warmed up.
With that sentence, I wish you a wonderful day/night wherever you are.
2 Months Backlog
Wow! It has been almost 3 months since I last updated my weblog here. It has been a long journey (although in just only a short 2-month-plus) and lots of topics are being ignored.
I guess the best excuse is blaming all other projects. 
From the projects at work, projects for some organisations to personal projects that have been multiplying and not to mention the issue of procastination.
The company I work for is finally emerged from Chapter 11 at the end of April. After 4 months of Year-End Reporting for 2009, we then had to work on another Year-End for the “old” company. We all seem to experience new terms in Finance which are quite interesting especially when we have to explain to our business partners about our situation etc.
Although surrounded by the issues with my present employer, I enjoyed my social life with my Sabahan family in Europe and friends, old and new. Sometime during my absence here, I was also appointed by the Malaysian Association of the Netherlands to be part of their present committee members. This was really an honour to me personally and to my people (from Sabah) generally.
Of course I had to move my plan (from doing it by ourselves, i.e. my family, friends and me) to the new Association I’m in. I guess there’s no harm of gaining from each other (in a positive way of course). We get support from the higher rank in this country from our home country and they get credit for the successful event held here. On behalf of my people, I’m so grateful and thanked Her Excellency for being the best hostest ever. I will tell you, my guest, more about this after I finish the first 2 important things-to-do before I move on. I know it’s only a shadow but you won’t let me tell you the whole picture, will you? Or else you won’t be coming to visit me again.
So, peeps. 3 big projects are done! Now, I guess it’s time to list down the to-do-list again. I start with only 2 (for now):
- Organise my desk with all the documents and “stuff”
- Organise the “stuff” in all machines (5 harddisks, internal and external)
The rest wait till I’m done.
Have a great weekend.
Daylight Saving Time in Holland
It’s almost midnight here in the Netherlands. Another couple of hours and we are back to the ‘summer time’. This means we all will experience a lack of an hour sleep. I am glad it happens in the weekend as I need to adjust my mood before going back to work on Monday. Being at work at 9 in the morning is just nice but spending another hour in the evening because the real time of arrival was 10am might be an issue. It’s not that I leave my work on time every day but I might have an appointment on Monday evening with a certain financial institution to talk about the cheapest interest rate they are offering. Luckily there is no such thing in my schedule.
The change of time will also mean that I am closer to home and at the same time, I am older an hour compare to the winter time.
So, to the new time. Welcome summer time and enjoy the spring season, soon to be summer.
Rhytmn of My Life
It’s Chinese New Year evening. There is not much happening at this side of the world apart from cooking, eating, watching tv and thinking. Not to mention the part of feeling sorry for myself for being away from my beloved ones back home on these special days.
The memories of my yester years came back when I went through my old photos that I took them with me during my holiday last year July. My childhood memories of moving from one place to another. My school days at 3 different primary schools and finally my secondary school. Later when I went to work and met a lot of people and then my time in college.
Life back then was not easy. From my babyhood till when I reached adulthood. Fear was the one thing I lived by. Fear of not obtaining flying colours at school. Fear of not being liked by my new classmates and teachers in a place full of strangers. Fear of having to see my loved ones (tortured) in the power of a person who was beside the person-self. Fear of losing the person I loved to someone of something else. Fear that I would turn up to be a weak creature or even worse a monster. Fear of a lot of unmentionable things.
Courage was not one of my strengths. There was no one to encourage me to do what was best. I was left to decide myself or to just close my heart for the most important decision in my supposed to be future life. Hence I lost everything. I blamed them. I blamed Him. Yet I was the one to be blamed… for lacking of courage.
One by one of the episodes came by. Erasing them from my memory was not an easy task. They liked to be played even without a permission. There was that tune and another one. A rough one and then sweet. The wind was blowing softly and the leaves were smiling happily. When I looked up, it was that bird again. So small but so free. I wished I was a bird.
I came back into the present. The reality! I looked back at some of the photos and put them to where they belonged.
This was just the rhytmn of my life. No regrets of the past and no fear of the future. Just live the present, sprinkle it with lots of love.
Happy Valentine’s day to the past, the present and with God’s will, the future. My Dear!
Random Talk Update
Helloooo. Have you missed me? Sorry for my long absence. That happens when one tries to live a life full of excitement.
Apparently I’m not the only one who hasn’t updated her blog. I’ve been visiting my fellow bloggers and grinning from ear to ear when I saw their last post was in January or even last year December. 
Meaning I can be forgiven, can’t I?
Welcoming 2010 was not as merrier as last year. I didn’t invite many friends as last year’s but only my fellow Paparian girlfriend and her husband who live 7 minutes away from my place. I managed to make several photographs of the beautiful fireworks. As usual every year, I’ve been calling home in Sabah to share with my family the loud and noisy fireworks from here. Millions of Euros were spent for the fireworks alone. As it turned out, I’ve suffered homesick for the first time after more than a decade away from my country, my dear family and friends. It could also be for a reason that lead me to a certain tragedy.
The weather didn’t help much either. It had been cold, below zero degree Celcius and sometimes the real feel was far worse than the real temperature. For the first time after perhaps 20 years (according to my Dutch friends), the country was covered with lots of snow for weeks. I had so much fun taking pictures at first but then the fun went away when I was infected by some viruses. Depression in winter time is normal due to the lack of sun and positive mind. I did my best to be happy and to look happy when I realised I have eye-bags. Not sure if it would help but no harm trying, right?
Oh, did I mention that it’s January and the Year-End crazyness was here? Did I also mention that I managed to get my butt of my desk for a couple of weeks? Ha! Gotcha! I had a nice resting weeks but still I had to work even from my dreams. Sucks!
I wish to share some photos with you but I am so hungry now that I do not have time to edit the photos and upload them here. I know it’s past 8pm already but I just can’t help from not eating every 1 or 2 hours. (The reason why I don’t share my latest photos with you.)
I might be back to tell you other tales. But I can’t promise. Anyway, it’s almost Chinese New Year and also Valentine’s day. I would like to wish my Chinese family, relatives and friends GONG XI FA CAI, WAN SHI LU YI.
Who wants ang pow?
My New Year Eve’s Nightmare
In a few more hours and it’s the New Year’s Eve. I can’t imagine that it will be the 11th or 12th time that I’m welcoming the new year far away from my home sweet home.
Tomorrow will be my last working day for 2009. (Yes! Sad but true. I DO work tomorrow. I enjoy though as I get to leave work early.)
However, I am not so sure if I dare to leave the metro station tomorrow and walk to my home. The silly, selfish, mad people have already started playing the firecrackers. Every year I have to pray hard that they would leave me alone. I hate those loud thing and just a few centimeters away from my feet. It is dangerous!
I guess I will just have to pretend that nothing is happening as it is every year. What a nightmare it will be! Bummer!
Happy December
It’s the first day of December and I’m back!
Hoping to make a fresh start and not the my-new-year’s-resolution do any longer. For more than a decade, it’s been the same old tale. So, I wish to try something new: Live the present, forget future and bury the past. Or should it be: Bury the past, forget future but live the present? Oh well! Whatever suits!
Year of 2009! What a shame! I buried 2 family members (pardon me, 1 was cremated), having to say “sorry for your loss” countless of times, and having to hear the news that someone (who used to be a close friend) was just buried yesterday. Or was it last week? Forgive my memory full. I just try to catch up something that no longer is a breaking news.
Other than that, it is a story that deserves to be printed someday, when the time comes. Or I might share it here one of these days. Be curious and you’ll know what bothers your mind.
Happy December! May it will bring a fruitful journey throughout the month.
