Monthly Archives: February 2010
14Feb Snow Photos
Enjoy some of the photos I took today on a couple of very special occasions. The welcoming of Tiger year and the Lovey Dovey Day and it was snowing! 
Rhytmn of My Life
It’s Chinese New Year evening. There is not much happening at this side of the world apart from cooking, eating, watching tv and thinking. Not to mention the part of feeling sorry for myself for being away from my beloved ones back home on these special days.
The memories of my yester years came back when I went through my old photos that I took them with me during my holiday last year July. My childhood memories of moving from one place to another. My school days at 3 different primary schools and finally my secondary school. Later when I went to work and met a lot of people and then my time in college.
Life back then was not easy. From my babyhood till when I reached adulthood. Fear was the one thing I lived by. Fear of not obtaining flying colours at school. Fear of not being liked by my new classmates and teachers in a place full of strangers. Fear of having to see my loved ones (tortured) in the power of a person who was beside the person-self. Fear of losing the person I loved to someone of something else. Fear that I would turn up to be a weak creature or even worse a monster. Fear of a lot of unmentionable things.
Courage was not one of my strengths. There was no one to encourage me to do what was best. I was left to decide myself or to just close my heart for the most important decision in my supposed to be future life. Hence I lost everything. I blamed them. I blamed Him. Yet I was the one to be blamed… for lacking of courage.
One by one of the episodes came by. Erasing them from my memory was not an easy task. They liked to be played even without a permission. There was that tune and another one. A rough one and then sweet. The wind was blowing softly and the leaves were smiling happily. When I looked up, it was that bird again. So small but so free. I wished I was a bird.
I came back into the present. The reality! I looked back at some of the photos and put them to where they belonged.
This was just the rhytmn of my life. No regrets of the past and no fear of the future. Just live the present, sprinkle it with lots of love.
Happy Valentine’s day to the past, the present and with God’s will, the future. My Dear!
Happy CNY & V’s Day
My dearest family, relatives and friends.
Happy prosperous Chinese New Year. The year of Tiger. Gong xi fa cai, wan shi ru yi.
祝你们新年快了，万事如意，恭喜发财。
Happy Valentine’s day to you all too.
Random Talk Update
Helloooo. Have you missed me? Sorry for my long absence. That happens when one tries to live a life full of excitement. 
Apparently I’m not the only one who hasn’t updated her blog. I’ve been visiting my fellow bloggers and grinning from ear to ear when I saw their last post was in January or even last year December. 
Meaning I can be forgiven, can’t I?
Welcoming 2010 was not as merrier as last year. I didn’t invite many friends as last year’s but only my fellow Paparian girlfriend and her husband who live 7 minutes away from my place. I managed to make several photographs of the beautiful fireworks. As usual every year, I’ve been calling home in Sabah to share with my family the loud and noisy fireworks from here. Millions of Euros were spent for the fireworks alone. As it turned out, I’ve suffered homesick for the first time after more than a decade away from my country, my dear family and friends. It could also be for a reason that lead me to a certain tragedy.
The weather didn’t help much either. It had been cold, below zero degree Celcius and sometimes the real feel was far worse than the real temperature. For the first time after perhaps 20 years (according to my Dutch friends), the country was covered with lots of snow for weeks. I had so much fun taking pictures at first but then the fun went away when I was infected by some viruses. Depression in winter time is normal due to the lack of sun and positive mind. I did my best to be happy and to look happy when I realised I have eye-bags. Not sure if it would help but no harm trying, right? 
Oh, did I mention that it’s January and the Year-End crazyness was here? Did I also mention that I managed to get my butt of my desk for a couple of weeks? Ha! Gotcha! I had a nice resting weeks but still I had to work even from my dreams. Sucks!
I wish to share some photos with you but I am so hungry now that I do not have time to edit the photos and upload them here. I know it’s past 8pm already but I just can’t help from not eating every 1 or 2 hours. (The reason why I don’t share my latest photos with you.)
I might be back to tell you other tales. But I can’t promise. Anyway, it’s almost Chinese New Year and also Valentine’s day. I would like to wish my Chinese family, relatives and friends GONG XI FA CAI, WAN SHI LU YI.
Who wants ang pow?
